Ry and I at my little brothers Wedding Reception

My Birthday Weekend :)
A three day weekend.....MUCH needed! Couldn't have come at any better time for myself. Saturday - we went over to a friends it was a nice calm night, early as well. We wanted to make the 8 am mass on Sunday. Sunday - Mass at 8. He said that I needed a "girlie" winter coat. So we were off to the mall when it opened. Ended up at Scheels. We got a lot more than just a coat. But all good things some we needed & then as always when shopping we got some things that we could have done without. Then he took me out to eat at the Olive Garden. I had not been there before. I would highly recommend the Asiago Chicken....mmmmmmm good. We called it an early night as well. Monday - my actual birthday - started out with a trip to the gym (now my legs are still sore). We decided to stay in Monday, after the running around that we did through out the weekend. We caught up on our tivo. It was well needed by both of us. Plus we didn't hardly talk to anyone from work all weekend. That means no talk of work :) Cells phones were on silent mode practically the whole time. Oh how the silence was loved!
Then the dreaded Tuesday.....Work! Can we say yay with a lil enthusiasm? *DEAD SILENCE*
Well still looking for a new one. I don't foresee this one getting "fixed" before the place breaks me.
Other than that everything is still going great. I couldn't have asked for a better weekend (a big thanks to you babe)!
I will post more later
-Froggy

Where to start?
Today started out really good. Went to the gym & then work. That's where the trouble started & ended.
Why is it that I always manage to find the people that can be as fake as can be, & befriend them? Only have a few specific ones though. The rest are genuine friends don't get me wrong. Days like this is what really makes me ponder on this. Could it possibly be something that I personally have done? Most of the time it ends up just being that they are just plain unhappy & cruel. I think that is the case here as well. I try really hard to blow it off. Then I made the mistake of thinking about it when I was home with my guy. He asked me what was wrong. I tried to play it off as nothing big & not to bother him with it. But he told me to tell him, because he wanted to help me fix the problem. So we talked about everything. I was kind of hesitant though, because he knows the person & is friends with them. I don't want to affect their friendship though & I told him that before I would reveal anything.
We've been doing really good lately. I'm in a state of mind when we're together, it's like I'm on cloud nine. I block out all of the thoughts of everything but us in that moment. I've never been like this before. It feels really really great.
I got a call back today on a possible new job. I pray that I get this one or a really good one. I really want out of the current one with everything going on there.
My prayers are also going out to a friend that is in a really bad situation. One kind of like what I was in just over a year ago. It ended with a slug fest & a restraining order. I'm trying to give her advise. She came to me with a BIG shiner on her cheek. She has a route out but doesn't know if she wants to leave or not. I tried to tell her that it'll only change for a little bit. Just long enough for her to let her guard down & then *WHAM*! God help her to be strong enough to walk away with her health, before it's too late.
Till next time
-Froggy

This weekend was nice & relaxing for the most part. Weekends like that make me forget about all the troubles taking place at that time. I have to thank him for helping me to relax & enjoy the moment.
I got in touch with an old friend that I hadn't talked to in over a year. I couldn't believe that they had a kid.
Talk of changing where we're getting married. I really don't mind where, it's about the whole serimony.
Not a lot to talk about lately. I'm tired & can't remember how to spell things so forgive me if I follied.
-Froggy

As of late I have been waking up from night terrors. I haven't been able to sleep more than an hour at a time. My body moves & twitches but yet I can't wake up. Then when I finally do I'm in a panic! I can't for the life of me remember what the dreams were though.
I have a lot of things going through my head. I think I have to get them solved right this second. I know that's not going to happen for one, two I don't have all of the facts so it's driving me insane. This has to change. I'm trying really hard to just calm down & look at it as if I was a fly on the wall. But then again when it's involving your life & future it gets really hard.
My birthday is coming up. I'm starting to wonder if things are going to go as planned or not. A lot has taken place since we made these plans. Plus I'm guessing that like the past, when I plan things, everything will be foiled. Not just because it's my birthday though. That's just the way things end up I guess.
I'm usually not like this. I'm blaming the job. I'm usually fun loving, free of cares, no worries, everything will work out kinda person. I've put my resume out so it shouldn't be long before I'm back to my old self again. I pray the man upstairs is looking out for me & answers my prayers. I miss the old me & I know those around me do too. Lord please help me find my way back again.
-Froggy

I have officially decided that the job has to change. Today was a really good day....until, I found out what was really going on at work. One of my friends even jokingly said that I was a mushy moron. Then later when she saw me she knew right away that it had hit the fan. I try & try but I don't get anywhere. I wanted to talk to someone that I knew I could trust not to talk, but...... I'm glad that my friend had bought the serenity prayer coin for me. Times like these I have to recite the prayer & most of the time I can't remember it. I get so frustrated sometimes. I try really hard to keep the faith, but sometimes I get really lost..... I feel like I was almost to the top of the really large hill & then I was sent tumbling down. I wouldn't say mountain, b/c it wasn't that big of a kick to the head. I HATE DRAMA!!!!
Other than all of that things are still really good at home. As long as the work stuff doesn't get brought back. Which with the both of us working there it tends to get really hard. But majority of the time we manage not to. As long as we don't hang out with those from work.
Froggy

The beginning

Hello Everyone. I always have a lot on my mind. Most of the time I have anyone to listen, or they do & can't keep it contained. So off to the net I go with it....Well not all of course.
I have been with a wonderful man now for almost a year. Sure we have our moments where we don't see eye to eye. Sometimes it takes us longer to work it out, but we're both stubborn ass'. Last December he asked me to marry him. I'd been hurt before, & it'd only been just over a month that we'd been dating. We hadn't even said that we loved the other. Even though I felt the feelings growing stronger inside, I wasn't quiet ready for that leap. Plus he & his buddies had told me he was a commiment phobe. We wanted it to be right. Neither one of us really believe in divorce. So we waited, & now we're getting married in February. He was always calling himself the eternal bachelor, until I came along. Now he's talking of marriage & children like that part of his life doesn't exist anymore. Everyone around him loves the change & are glad to see him "maturing". I'm just glad that I have him in my life to share all the wonderful memories we've made & are going to continue to make. So here we go with the BIGGEST leap of all.
My best friend just moved to Cali. :( We were really close friends for almost 2 years. Her husband came back from over seas & is stationed out there. I'm happy for her. I miss her a lot. She was the one that I always talked to about all my issues. Always had good advice too. We were each others shoulders to lean on. We still keep in touch but it's not quiet the same. No more shopping trips or going to the bar just the girls.
Today was kinda hectic. This morning he called earlier than expected. I thought I closed, wrong, I opened. I had to be at work in half an hour. So out the door dragging ass I went. Thank the lord he called me. I was going to be getting up soon as is, but it was just to get him & hit the gym. We have to share the car right now. Mine is "broken" This tends to get kinda crazy. Because he works overnights, I work swing shift. We both have to get up in the middle of our "nights" to get the other. That will have to change really soon. He got a call back for a really good job. So it's off to get a newer car or fix mine. Then when I finally got off work, we were supposed to go to mass. But the pillow next to him was looking really good. So I laid down & I was out before I knew it. We were going to get up earlier than he usually does so we could go eat before he went to work. As I said the bed was just way too comfy. We ended up at taco hell. He just made it to work on time.
I've really got to get a new job! The one that I have now is "supposed" to be stress free. Then why do I have an ulcer from stress? UGH! The only problem is that when it comes to what I want to do with that part of my life I'm not sure. I'm going to be 26 soon & I still haven't figured out that yet? I'm not sure what the man upstairs has in store for me as far as that goes, but I'm pretty sure it's not where I'm at right now. Everything else in my life is good right now.
I'm really happy for him right now. Because he's getting out of the hell hole we call work. I pray that he'll get second shift instead of over nights. Then I won't have to be home alone every night. Sometimes it's really good to have the house to myself. Like when I just want to soak in the tub, & relax. Then there are those nights (Mondays) that I really miss him. Yeah sure I have Moses our kitten, but he just doesn't compare. He keeps telling me that this new job will help us get out of where we are now. That way when we're married & have kids we won't have to worry about insurance or any of that jazz. He'll be making more money & less stress also.
I'm really lucky to have him in my life.
I really want to meet him parents. His mom passed when he was little, may her soul rest in peace. I guess he and his father had a falling out a while ago & of course the stubborn part kicks in. I have met his adopted family & love them. He's met my family. Most of them he agrees with me that they are trouble. Then my step family on the other hand. My grandparents on that side have accepted him in their lives as they did me when I was an infant. They have loved him almost as long as I have. They're super excited that he'll be apart of the family soon.
I'm starting to ramble, so till next time :)