As of late I have been waking up from night terrors. I haven't been able to sleep more than an hour at a time. My body moves & twitches but yet I can't wake up. Then when I finally do I'm in a panic! I can't for the life of me remember what the dreams were though.
I have a lot of things going through my head. I think I have to get them solved right this second. I know that's not going to happen for one, two I don't have all of the facts so it's driving me insane. This has to change. I'm trying really hard to just calm down & look at it as if I was a fly on the wall. But then again when it's involving your life & future it gets really hard.
My birthday is coming up. I'm starting to wonder if things are going to go as planned or not. A lot has taken place since we made these plans. Plus I'm guessing that like the past, when I plan things, everything will be foiled. Not just because it's my birthday though. That's just the way things end up I guess.
I'm usually not like this. I'm blaming the job. I'm usually fun loving, free of cares, no worries, everything will work out kinda person. I've put my resume out so it shouldn't be long before I'm back to my old self again. I pray the man upstairs is looking out for me & answers my prayers. I miss the old me & I know those around me do too. Lord please help me find my way back again.
-Froggy