Well I thought that we had solved this issue. With the start of a new year and all. Especially since we talked it through.
I feel like a burden to all around me right now. I feel severly down and trapped. I have a car that I can't seem to get running and have to rely on others. Therefore I'm pooring all of my money into this damn thing and not getting anywhwere. I ask for help, remind you that I do not like to ask for help, and they say sure no problem. Then later things seem to wind up biting me in the ass! 1 I hate owing people anything. 2 When I do I am very prompt about paying it back as soon as I can. 3 I get severly frustrated when people say they are going to do something and then they don't (doesn't everyone?)
I realize things have been very hectic and busy as of late and things are starting to take their toll. I try my damndest to be very patient and understanding. But there is a point when I will explode.
I have a bad feeling, it could just be my head messing with me, that things are getting the way that they are because of other things and not to deal with me. I just manage to be on the receiving end of the whip.