Recently I have found an old poem book of mine from years ago. I stumbled across this when I was going through some old boxes of mine to get rid of the old stuff that's no longer needed. I was thumbing through it and it has inspired me to pick up where I left off. I'm going to publish one for the first time via blogger.
Pain
Something is hidding
I can feel it
I ask but get nothing
They think that I don't trust
And that all I do is lust
When in fact all I feel is Love
It is true blue & it is from up above
They don't exactly see my insecurities
I try to show them & explain
I try to show them all this pain
It was shown to me when I was young
I'm not worth anything
Anything that is good will end in pain
I do not show all that is inside
Because it holds a lot of pain
Pain hurts so I want to hide
I want to stop the hurt before it takes place
So I try to talk and that leads to...
Different kinds of pain
They see mistrust and lack of confidence
But inside I see love, and trust, one day
If I'm lucky......I will find the one that I can
Trust enough to let in & he won't abuse the information
He won't use all the pain to cause more
Get married, buy a house, cars, kids the real "American" Dream
I fear that won't happen because I'm not worthy
But they tell me not to worry
~Froggy~

Stepping Stones
I feel invisible to the world
Sometimes to those for whom I care
I may have just let some do what they want before
But where are they at now
To them I was just a stepping stone
Tired & hurt - well NO more
I won't allow it anymore
Those who want to step here
Can Kiss My A*S
Let me walk a little
Turn the tables
Show them how it feels
Do things for me
Not dispite me
Because you shall only receive
What you do to me
So think about that before you do it
If you want that then continue
This is to all that truely do not care
Those that do should care enough
To stop and think first
I hold so many ?s inside
For I have been "just another stone" for so long
I'm tired of being everyone's rock
I want to start off fresh with my own building block
I hope that begins soon
I have faith, but it lacks with me
Am I really worth all that is expected
Or am I just one big disappointment
To my family, friends, loved ones all the same
That ? plays over in my head
Here is to my very own beginers set of Building Blocks
~Froggy~