The beginning

Hello Everyone. I always have a lot on my mind. Most of the time I have anyone to listen, or they do & can't keep it contained. So off to the net I go with it....Well not all of course.
I have been with a wonderful man now for almost a year. Sure we have our moments where we don't see eye to eye. Sometimes it takes us longer to work it out, but we're both stubborn ass'. Last December he asked me to marry him. I'd been hurt before, & it'd only been just over a month that we'd been dating. We hadn't even said that we loved the other. Even though I felt the feelings growing stronger inside, I wasn't quiet ready for that leap. Plus he & his buddies had told me he was a commiment phobe. We wanted it to be right. Neither one of us really believe in divorce. So we waited, & now we're getting married in February. He was always calling himself the eternal bachelor, until I came along. Now he's talking of marriage & children like that part of his life doesn't exist anymore. Everyone around him loves the change & are glad to see him "maturing". I'm just glad that I have him in my life to share all the wonderful memories we've made & are going to continue to make. So here we go with the BIGGEST leap of all.
My best friend just moved to Cali. :( We were really close friends for almost 2 years. Her husband came back from over seas & is stationed out there. I'm happy for her. I miss her a lot. She was the one that I always talked to about all my issues. Always had good advice too. We were each others shoulders to lean on. We still keep in touch but it's not quiet the same. No more shopping trips or going to the bar just the girls.
Today was kinda hectic. This morning he called earlier than expected. I thought I closed, wrong, I opened. I had to be at work in half an hour. So out the door dragging ass I went. Thank the lord he called me. I was going to be getting up soon as is, but it was just to get him & hit the gym. We have to share the car right now. Mine is "broken" This tends to get kinda crazy. Because he works overnights, I work swing shift. We both have to get up in the middle of our "nights" to get the other. That will have to change really soon. He got a call back for a really good job. So it's off to get a newer car or fix mine. Then when I finally got off work, we were supposed to go to mass. But the pillow next to him was looking really good. So I laid down & I was out before I knew it. We were going to get up earlier than he usually does so we could go eat before he went to work. As I said the bed was just way too comfy. We ended up at taco hell. He just made it to work on time.
I've really got to get a new job! The one that I have now is "supposed" to be stress free. Then why do I have an ulcer from stress? UGH! The only problem is that when it comes to what I want to do with that part of my life I'm not sure. I'm going to be 26 soon & I still haven't figured out that yet? I'm not sure what the man upstairs has in store for me as far as that goes, but I'm pretty sure it's not where I'm at right now. Everything else in my life is good right now.
I'm really happy for him right now. Because he's getting out of the hell hole we call work. I pray that he'll get second shift instead of over nights. Then I won't have to be home alone every night. Sometimes it's really good to have the house to myself. Like when I just want to soak in the tub, & relax. Then there are those nights (Mondays) that I really miss him. Yeah sure I have Moses our kitten, but he just doesn't compare. He keeps telling me that this new job will help us get out of where we are now. That way when we're married & have kids we won't have to worry about insurance or any of that jazz. He'll be making more money & less stress also.
I'm really lucky to have him in my life.
I really want to meet him parents. His mom passed when he was little, may her soul rest in peace. I guess he and his father had a falling out a while ago & of course the stubborn part kicks in. I have met his adopted family & love them. He's met my family. Most of them he agrees with me that they are trouble. Then my step family on the other hand. My grandparents on that side have accepted him in their lives as they did me when I was an infant. They have loved him almost as long as I have. They're super excited that he'll be apart of the family soon.
I'm starting to ramble, so till next time :)